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The Work on ‘I need to not be fat’

I need to not be fat.

Is that true?

No.

How do I react when I believe the thought ‘I need to not be fat?’

I feel hideous when I look in the mirror, I feel disgusted with my fat rolls, and the size of my hips, stomach and bust. I feel completely wrong. I get very stressed when I put on weight, and my dress size terrifies me. I displace my disgust of myself onto strangers, and judge them on their weight and on the clothes they wear. I am equally likely to be judgmental of people who are thinner than me as I am of those who are fatter than me. I spend an inordinate amount of time and energy feeling stressed about weight, and about what I eat, and about my size. It’s extremely stressful.

Who am I without the thought ‘I need to not be fat’?

I am empty and free. I don’t even notice size. I eat what it occurs to me to eat, and I wear whatever fits. I am joyful and I know my own value, and other people’s.

Is there a peaceful reason to believe the thought ‘I need to not be fat’?

Believing that I need to not be fat helps me be healthy.

Is that true?

No!!!!!!!!!!!!

Turn it around

– Believing that I need to not be fat does not help me to be healthy

Reasons this statement could be as true or truer than the original:

1. It stresses me out, which is absolutely not healthy, physically or mentally
2. It makes me restrict what I eat, which leads to binges.
3. I still eat junk food while believing the thought that ‘I need to not be fat’.

Is there a peaceful reason to believe the thought ‘I need to not be fat’?

No.

Turn it around

– I need to be fat

Reasons why it could be better to be fat:

1. I can eat whatever I want.
2. If I got fat enough I could ride around on a scooter!
3. It would cut down on unwanted sexual attention.
4. I could sit in two bus seats at once.
5. I could store things in my fat rolls!!! heh.

– My thinking needs to not be fat

My body is fine the way it is, in fact it’s perfect in this moment. What is fat and heavy is my thinking, especially about my body. Lucky I have The Work to help me with thought ‘weight loss’!

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The Work on ‘I need to be tiny’

I need to be tiny.

Is that true?

I don’t know.

Can I absolutely know that it’s true?

No.

How do I react when I believe the thought that ‘I need to be tiny’?

I feel absolutely hideous and wrong when I look at my body. I feel extremely stressed out, and unattractive. I feel ungainly, cumbersome and unfeminine, and I feel really¬†terrible about myself. I restrict what I eat quite severely. I hate myself for my clothing size. I criticise my portion sizes, and I stress out about what I’m eating a lot of the time. I beat myself up for eating junk food. I think longingly of when I used to be tiny, not remembering that I wasn’t happier back then. I ascribe a lot of happiness to being tiny.

Who am I without the thought ‘I need to be tiny’?

I eat what I eat and I do what I do, according to intuition and instinct. I eat as much as I want of  whatever I want to eat. I wear clothes that fit. I feel empty, light and free.

Is there a peaceful reason to believe the thought ‘I need to be tiny’?

No.

Turn it around.

I don’t need to be tiny

Reasons it could be better to not be tiny:

1. I get to have a classically feminine shape.
2. It’s easy to get clothes that fit.
3. I can’t be carried off!
4. I won’t look weak.

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The Work on ‘I am unhealthy’

I am unhealthy.

Is that true?
Yes.

Can I absolutely know that it’s true that I am unhealthy?
No.

How do I react when I believe the thought that I’m unhealthy?

I feel very stressed out. Life seems like too much. I feel a real sense of hopelessness about my ability to really enjoy and engage with life. I am very severe on myself in terms of my diet — I am a perfectionist for a while, which is very stressful, and thereafter I react by eating a lot of junk food. After that I feel guilty, awful about myself, and completely out of control. I feel angry at myself for making my health worse. I complain and feel scared and ‘force’ Boyfriend to support me. I avoid things, like running, going out too much, getting cold. I feel terrified when I get cold or wet, thinking it’s going to lead to illness. I spend a lot of time terrified of getting sick, and being frustrated and angry and blaming myself when I do get sick. I feel very angry at the Universe/angry at God for putting me in this defective body. In fact, I feel a lot of rage. I have lots of tantrums and feel that life is really too much for me.

Who am I without the thought ‘I am unhealthy’?
I am at peace. I have so much energy. I am happy, strong and capable. I do what I do, I eat what I eat, with a sense of total peace and strength. If I get sick, I enjoy resting, knowing that I am inherently complete and perfect. I never make decisions according to an idea of myself as damaged — I make the decisions that feel right and joyful in the moment. I feel strong, infinitely so, and infinitely capable.

Is there a peaceful reason to believe the thought ‘I am unhealthy’?
I can get the help I need.

I need to believe I am unhealthy to get the help I need.

Is that true?
No.

I need help.

Is that true?
No.

How do I react when I believe the thought ‘I need help’?
I stress out about finding the right person or people to help me. I spend a LOT of money on appointments and medicines. This reinforces my idea of myself as damaged. I feel very small and very powerless, needing external forces. I feel very sad and discouraged when I see someone and the treatment doesn’t seem to help.

Who am I without the thought ‘I need help’?
I smile and look on everything as perfect. I love every sensation in my body and I am grateful for every twinge. I see a health practitioner when I decide to, but I know in my heart that I am perfect, and I don’t need anyone to heal me.

Is there a peaceful reason to believe the thought ‘I need help’?
No.

Turn it around

– I don’t need help.
Three reasons why this statement is as true or truer than the original:
1. I am able to move through my daily life just fine
2. A lot can be achieved by changing my habits, which I don’t need external help to do
3. I never used to see health practitioners this often and I was just fine.

– My thinking needs help.
There is a LOT to be achieved by doing The Work on the thoughts that stand between me and my wellbeing.

Is there a peaceful reason to believe the thought ‘I am unhealthy’?
I can modify my habits in order to live better.

Believing that I am unhealthy allows me to modify my habits.

Is that true?
No. It makes me feel not strong enough to modify my habits.

Is there a peaceful reason to believe the thought ‘I am unhealthy’?
It’ll motivate me to go to the gym.

Is that true?
No.

Is there a peaceful reason to believe the thought ‘I am unhealthy’?
No.

Turn it around.

– I am healthy
Reasons this statement is as true or truer than the original thought:
1. I am up and about.
2. My intellect works really well.
3. I can live on junk food.
4. I can laugh and be happy.
5. I can weed the garden.
6. I can walk for two hours.
7. I can work with weights.
8. I can do yoga.
9. I’m not depressed or anxious.
10. My thyroid is working well.
11. I can progressively relax my muscles.
12. I can have sex and have an orgasm.
13. I can sleep.
14. I can wake up.
15. I can dress myself, feed myself, go to the toilet myself, clean myself.
16. My brain works well — I have no learning issues, no epilepsy, no hallucinations.
17. I get over infections.
18. I can learn new things.
19. My fight or flight response works really well.
20. I can catch objects that are thrown to me.
21. I can run, skip and dance.
22. I can see, hear, taste and smell.
23. I can walk without assistance.
24. I can smile.
25. I can read and write.
26. I can engage with new concepts.
27. I am alive.
28. I can sing, make music and understand rhythm.

– My thinking is unhealthy
Especially about my health! There is so much Work to be done, and I’m so looking forward to doing it.

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