I need to be healthy.
Is that true?
How do I react when I believe the thought ‘I need to be healthy’?
I stress out about finding therapists and health practitioners to ‘fix’ me. I act weak. I stress about whether I will get a cold. I feel angry at God for putting me in a defective body. I spend a lot of time, money and effort on getting healthy. I get extremely stressed when I get symptoms, especially if they’re new. I make a lot of unrealistic health goals and plans. I tell others about my poor health, and I get defensive and complain a lot in those interactions. I judge other people on their habits, displacing my own judgment of myself onto other people.
Who am I without the thought ‘I need to be healthy’?
I am empty, free and at peace. I do what I do and I eat what I eat. I do whatever feels right when sick, but maintain my sense of peace. All seems right with the world. I accept whatever happens.
Is there a peaceful reason to believe the thought ‘I need to be healthy?’
Turn it around
– I don’t need to be healthy
Reasons it could be better to not be healthy:
1. Bed rest — I would get to read and do nothing very much, and have plenty of time to do The Work!
2. I wouldn’t have to work.
3. I could get attention and be fussed over.
– My thinking needs to be healthy
This is where peace and happiness comes from, not from the body.